Resolution Panic
Its the start of the year and some how everyone seems to have resolutions and a clear picture of what they have mapped out for this year, me on the other hand not so much. I tend to be a little bit like the government of this beloved country great planner( of course someone is bound to disagree) but a hopeless implementer and because of this at the end of the year I am left feeling really stupid and unfulfilled.
At first I thought I shouldn't make any concrete plans and take each day as it comes. Its a plan but in a way its avoiding responsibility for the future. Its like acting like the future doesn't exist, which it does. I know I am going to die some day but I can't live like that day is always tomorrow lest I wake up one day and i am ninety and not much to show for my life.
So here I am contemplating what will carry me through the year. Of course I will have to start with the things I neglected to do or just procrastinated and never got to do them. That list alone could cover resolutions for the next few years and it put me in a state of panic.
I mean these are things people did ages ago and I am just getting round to thinking about doing them. Then a bell goes off in my mind to stop comparing myself to the rest of the world or my peers. But let's be honest we cannot live a life without a benchmark for what you are expected to achieve so the thought of not comparing my self is soon forgotten and I am back to panicking at how I am going to get everything on my list done, where I am going to get the finances, what fail-safe plan do I have in-case plan A and B doesn't work out.
So then I am not only panicking but now calculating the probabilities of achievement and statistics are not exactly promising.So in my place of panic and total mess something comes to me.
So yes, this year my resolution will be to seek God, knowledge and wisdom and the rest will be added unto me.I will make plans with confidence knowing that God has got this. I know there is always frustration when things do not go to plan but the lord says
So this year will be interesting because its not in my hands anymore but in the hands of someone who first of all know me best, cares about my well being and loves me a lot more than I can possibly imagine.
In short my year is in safe hands and my moments of panic will sneak in once in a while, but on a whole,the Big Guy has me sorted.
At first I thought I shouldn't make any concrete plans and take each day as it comes. Its a plan but in a way its avoiding responsibility for the future. Its like acting like the future doesn't exist, which it does. I know I am going to die some day but I can't live like that day is always tomorrow lest I wake up one day and i am ninety and not much to show for my life.
So here I am contemplating what will carry me through the year. Of course I will have to start with the things I neglected to do or just procrastinated and never got to do them. That list alone could cover resolutions for the next few years and it put me in a state of panic.
I mean these are things people did ages ago and I am just getting round to thinking about doing them. Then a bell goes off in my mind to stop comparing myself to the rest of the world or my peers. But let's be honest we cannot live a life without a benchmark for what you are expected to achieve so the thought of not comparing my self is soon forgotten and I am back to panicking at how I am going to get everything on my list done, where I am going to get the finances, what fail-safe plan do I have in-case plan A and B doesn't work out.
So then I am not only panicking but now calculating the probabilities of achievement and statistics are not exactly promising.So in my place of panic and total mess something comes to me.
Matthew 6:33New International Version (NIV)
33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
. there after this also came to mindProverbs 16:9 (AMP) |
9 A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure.
Jeremiah 29:11-13Good News Translation (GNT)
11 I alone know the plans I have for you, plans to bring you prosperity and not disaster, plans to bring about the future you hope for.[a] 12 Then you will call to me. You will come and pray to me, and I will answer you. 13 You will seek me, and you will find me because you will seek me with all your heart.
In short my year is in safe hands and my moments of panic will sneak in once in a while, but on a whole,the Big Guy has me sorted.
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